Welcome to my new start at blogging…again.
Somewhere around 15 years ago I started an Xanga account. Precisely like my friends were all doing during that delightfully awkward period known as middle school. I can’t honestly recall if I liked it or even cared enough to feign liking it at the time, but the idea stuck with me moving forward in life. I love the idea of being able to pick up an old conversation that I’ve been having with myself and revisit it again. Thanks to the modern miracle that is WordPress I now have the tools to pick up and try the concept again. So here we go, my new idea…start off with what I’m thinking and expand.
I would like to take a moment and just thank the wonderfully mystical women of my life for giving me the bravery to attempt this written feat. I’ve been truly fortunate to know some honest-to-goodness mystical, magickal, or just simply dirty hippie souls in my life. Something about them speaks to me on a level I do not usually receive from the average person. In short ladies, thank you! I appreciate all of your positive energy that I do not understand, I appreciate the vibes you send, and I appreciate your craft, no matter what it may be.
I do not claim to be gifted as they are, goodness knows I am not. But I aspire to their level of comfort with the world. To simply have peace knowing it is all beyond our control and that we should be thankful for what comes and for what goes.
I am reading a book right now, Matchmaking For Beginners: A Novel by Maddie Dawson and am so entranced by Blix. She reflects the characteristics I’ve come to know and love about the magickal people in my life. I reccomend it so far, being only 14% of the way in, because I’ve read a beautiful passage that I simply had to comment on.
Spoiler alert! Blix has a mass in her stomach, it is likely what will kill her. She’s an 85 year old woman with more life in her than I feel like I do on an average day. Blix commented on her welcoming mentality and instead of treating this probably fatal mass as a battle ground in her body, she simply lets it be. She named the mass, did her little rituals and chants, ran the gambit it seemed of new-age or old world practices, and is simply unafraid of death. “It’s just a change of address really.”
I’ve only read a bit of it, but I love her character and she reminds me of my first slightly off-beat character love – Aunt Meg from the 1996 classic, Twister. She’s a small part, but an important one in my eyes. She isn’t outright anything other than an older woman living alone who loves the people in her life. She feeds them steak from what used to be her cows and eggs when they visit, and her house is blown over by a tornado. Congratulations, you just read the absolute worst summary of my favorite character in Twister. You’re welcome. Never the less the character resonated with me as a child when I saw the movie for the first time and still does. Wind chimes and all.
I often wonder what kind of person I’ll grow up to be. I sincerely hope I grow into some sort of mystical, magickal, dirty hippie. Maybe I’m already on my way, who knows?
Anyway, thanks for reading. More blogging adventure fun next time.
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Anywhoo, Abyss has changed a LOT. Dread came back and left {awwwww! I started liking her again, she was awesome, she handled Denali awesomely.} annnnd tons of things went down. Denali is no longer a real functioning group, TBM is growing stronger every day, and I’m kicking back currently at 76+ watching the newbies rise and drown. I have 5,822 posts, rising more each day, and yeah…loving it. I have 148 kills, 81 deaths, and an awesome track record for hits. 🙂 Abyss Beta is in testing phase and it sucks, so far every class has been stripped of its high points {if any} yet some how the monk class {thanks to Astarte, the newb who came in suggesting and making HUGE changes to Abyss. I think Astarte should get a good whacking and then knocked off but whatever. 
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Exactly 10 months, hours away from 10 months actually. But yeah, reasons are known, 3 weeks without contact in July from the 4th to…some time or whatever, and then bam, I was pissed, stuff happened, annnd yeah, I broke up with him after the first day of school. And on August 29th, I started dating Cam Souza, and for the record, no, he’s not gay. 
You could say I like him, but honestly idk…I’d see us more as friends personally. Even that’s iffy…I barely talk to him out of band, I can’t blame him though, I am a pain in the ass to deal with sometimes. But I do buy him popcorn damn it, he should be happy 
I’m such a band geek, I love it though! Football games are SO much fun, we take off our rediculous hat (or at least I do) and I keep my phone, music, money, and possibly camera and I lean back and put my arm on Goulart’s knee when we’re not playing and drive him crazy and basically have a good time. I love doing that. I feel like such a dirty flirt but quite honestly I don’t intend it to be like that, he just makes an awesome armrest 
) Idk why I did but I did…and yeah…guilty as hell but…ehh
Poor Tig!
(Male slave auction was this week, I bought Athrun Zala for 125k, I gave half to him of course, half to Jill, I believe someone else did too, she has lots of BB. ^_^ I love that it’s both a fun raiser and a GREAT RP experiance for newbs. We had a record 33 men this year, plus Dread who’s RP character is male, it was pretty damn cool)
Sarcasm and Circumstance 
