Alright due to mass confusion from my own brain I’m gonna write this here…
Steve and I are back together I appoligised asked him back out and made
nicey nicey…so, here’s the catch, I can’t tell anyone which is gay
Devin now hates me to the extream now which sucks cause…damn it I
think I like him…not love just like…as in as a friendy
thing-ish…errrh…I should’ve asked him out in 6th grade! Damn it I
was to bloody nervous I feel like wacking myself over the head with a
metal bat! *Okay self don’t get any ideas!* God, if I had just done it
and got it over with at least now it wouldn’t be such a big deal that I
like him…errhhh…my brain hurts!
I finished 4.5 haiku’s in Language class probably bombed those too, I
suck at poetry…I can make pretty good lymerics or catch phrases or
info-banners but nothing that’s good….I got a C+ in Language!
If I don’t make B Honor roll this term I won’t be able to get upgrades
for my computer…damn it I want those things! They consist of a new
Motherboard, CPU, Ram&Fans for the board CPU and the other crap…
Steve said he luved me 2day&yesterday lookie!
DarkMagician5c (6:32:41 PM): i read ur profile bout the stars things
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:32:57 PM): i haven’t gotten a chance to change it yet
DarkMagician5c (6:33:45 PM): yes u already changed it says something bout u screwing up and u wish u could change it
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:34:00 PM): i did?
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:34:06 PM): haha it worked!
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:34:12 PM): ^_^ booyah
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:36:05 PM): it said
Well there were enough stars for why I loved Steve…now their gone and
all my reasons have been torn…I miss him I do but I can’t turn back
time…if I could I’d make everything right again, somebody save me
from myself…depression eminent
DarkMagician5c (6:36:25 PM): i knw
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:36:50 PM): what about it?
DarkMagician5c (6:37:05 PM): i knw wat it said
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:37:23 PM): ik u probably dont’ care but i do…
DarkMagician5c (6:37:42 PM): i do
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:38:15 PM): ^_^ u forgive me for gettin mad?
DarkMagician5c (6:38:46 PM): yeh
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:39:16 PM): i wub u
DarkMagician5c (6:39:49 PM): so u want to be friends again
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:40:15 PM): how bout bf&gf again? one last try?
DarkMagician5c (6:40:19 PM): or was that for going back out again
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:40:26 PM): could be either
DarkMagician5c (6:40:37 PM): u want to go back out
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:41:10 PM): yes…life sucks without u…lonelyness
DarkMagician5c (6:41:34 PM): ok but sssshhhhhhhhh dont tell anyone so it looks like were not toghter
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:41:37 PM): do u? don’t let me push u into it
DarkMagician5c (6:41:46 PM): and dont write in ur profile
DarkMagician5c (6:42:05 PM): o no u are not pushing me into it
DarkMagician5c (6:42:21 PM): brb
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:42:24 PM): …life really does suck without u…things hurt more
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:42:25 PM): k
DarkMagician5c (6:48:16 PM): baq
DarkMagician5c (6:48:31 PM): dont rell anyone leave ur profile the way it is k
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:48:37 PM): cool
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:48:56 PM): k…i just changed my buddy profile too
DarkMagician5c (6:49:01 PM): k
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:04 PM): it said we were still goin out…
DarkMagician5c (6:49:09 PM): good dont tell any1 k
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:14 PM): k…
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:18 PM): jw y?
DarkMagician5c (6:49:25 PM): well i luv u g2g by bey
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:34 PM): i luv u! ^_^ bye
Oh the 16th this is what he sent me…it was MCAS endused see for MCAS
weekI went to room 47 with Joey, Scott, Danny Shannon and a few other
people…Joey waits for me outside of my reading class because he has
reading when I do. We walk together to our next classes and me him and
Steve talk. Steve is sorta mad because I do talk to Joey like every
DarkMagician5c (6:18:43 PM): well lets hope he isnt there well i luv u and i g2g go take a bath so bye
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:18:53 PM): i wub u!
LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:18:59 PM): :- byebye
It still has I luv u in it so I guess it was okay…luv sucks
sometimes…and other times it’s the only thing that’s keeping me
The people in my general music class *Particularly Nick S and Mark D*
are such asses! Their always picking on me…I know I’m no where near
pretty *even though Steve says I am* but it’s rediculous! Their really mean and it’s starting to hurt…minutely…and people wonder why I am so depressed…