Alright due to mass confusion from my own brain I’m gonna write this here…

Steve and I are back together I appoligised asked him back out and made
nicey nicey…so, here’s the catch, I can’t tell anyone which is gay
but w/e…

Devin now hates me to the extream now which sucks cause…damn it I
think I like him…not love just like…as in as a friendy
thing-ish…errrh…I should’ve asked him out in 6th grade! Damn it I
was to bloody nervous I feel like wacking myself over the head with a
metal bat! *Okay self don’t get any ideas!* God, if I had just done it
and got it over with at least now it wouldn’t be such a big deal that I
like him…errhhh…my brain hurts!

I finished 4.5 haiku’s in Language class probably bombed those too, I
suck at poetry…I can make pretty good lymerics or catch phrases or
info-banners but nothing that’s good….I got a C+ in Language!
If I don’t make B Honor roll this term I won’t be able to get upgrades
for my computer…damn it I want those things! They consist of a new
Motherboard, CPU, Ram&Fans for the board CPU and the other crap…

Steve said he luved me 2day&yesterday lookie!

DarkMagician5c (6:32:41 PM): i read ur profile bout the stars things

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:32:57 PM):  i haven’t gotten a chance to change it yet

DarkMagician5c (6:33:45 PM): yes u already changed it says something bout u screwing up and u wish u could change it

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:34:00 PM): i did?

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:34:06 PM): haha it worked!

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:34:12 PM): ^_^ booyah

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:36:05 PM): it said

Well there were enough stars for why I loved Steve…now their gone and
all my reasons have been torn…I miss him I do but I can’t turn back
time…if I could I’d make everything right again, somebody save me
from myself…depression eminent

DarkMagician5c (6:36:25 PM): i knw

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:36:50 PM): what about it?

DarkMagician5c (6:37:05 PM): i knw wat it said

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:37:23 PM): ik u probably dont’ care but i do…

DarkMagician5c (6:37:42 PM): i do

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:38:15 PM): ^_^ u forgive me for gettin mad?

DarkMagician5c (6:38:46 PM): yeh

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:39:16 PM):  i wub u

DarkMagician5c (6:39:49 PM): so u want to be friends again

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:40:15 PM): how bout bf&gf again? one last try?

DarkMagician5c (6:40:19 PM): or was that for going back out again

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:40:26 PM): could be either

DarkMagician5c (6:40:37 PM): u want to go back out

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:41:10 PM): yes…life sucks without u…lonelyness

DarkMagician5c (6:41:34 PM): ok but sssshhhhhhhhh dont tell anyone so it looks like were not toghter

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:41:37 PM): do u? don’t let me push u into it

DarkMagician5c (6:41:46 PM): and dont write in ur profile

DarkMagician5c (6:42:05 PM): o no u are not pushing me into it

DarkMagician5c (6:42:21 PM): brb

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:42:24 PM): …life really does suck without u…things hurt more

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:42:25 PM): k

DarkMagician5c (6:48:16 PM): baq

DarkMagician5c (6:48:31 PM): dont rell anyone leave ur profile the way it is k

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:48:37 PM): cool 

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:48:56 PM): k…i just changed my buddy profile too

DarkMagician5c (6:49:01 PM): k

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:04 PM): it said we were still goin out…

DarkMagician5c (6:49:09 PM): good dont tell any1 k

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:14 PM): k…

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:18 PM): jw y?

DarkMagician5c (6:49:25 PM): well i luv u g2g by bey

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:49:34 PM): i luv u! ^_^ bye

Oh the 16th this is what he sent me…it was MCAS endused see for MCAS
weekI went to room 47 with Joey, Scott, Danny Shannon and a few other
people…Joey waits for me outside of my reading class because he has
reading when I do. We walk together to our next classes and me him and
Steve talk. Steve is sorta mad because I do talk to Joey like every

DarkMagician5c (6:18:43 PM): well lets hope he isnt there well i luv u and i g2g go take a bath so bye

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:18:53 PM): i wub u!

LoVeYoUbAbY12192 (6:18:59 PM): :- byebye

It still has I luv u in it so I guess it was okay…luv sucks
sometimes…and other times it’s the only thing that’s keeping me

The people in my general music class *Particularly Nick S and Mark D*
are such asses! Their always picking on me…I know I’m no where near
pretty *even though Steve says I am* but it’s rediculous! Their really mean and it’s starting to hurt…minutely…and people wonder why I am so depressed…


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